Yep, I pretty much stole that title from the Star Trek movie. Because its appropriate, Kirk and crew face their darkest mission, yet it’s about the beginning of exploring the great dark of space.
In my last post here, I wrote of how I interpreted a visual sight (not to mention all the cawing of those crows) as being a message from The Morrigan… I just didn’t know what it meant.
My good friend, Cristina, interpreted it as a message of ‘Transformation and regeneration… usually after a time of pain. And War-Goddesses are also Goddesses of healing‘.
Today, I figured out the message!
On the OBOD Bardic course, I’ve been on Gwers #45 since April. I tried out the Practicum in it when I was in Cyprus, but I more often than not kept falling asleep. Today, I felt the urge to read it and do it again. I answered the questions suggested with different answers to what I got the first time. The exercise (no spoilers for my Bardic friends who will be reading this!) this time was a lot more productive. I think the chunk of limestone on my diaphragm helped me NOT fall asleep this time.
My thoughts gave way to nothing…. and then the answer revealed itself like a statue being uncovered in the sea as the surf gives way to reveal a secret hidden in plain sight:
All of my life I’ve tried to force my hand to make things happen. Tried to make my life into something to go my way. In ways, it did and in ways it didn’t. I mean it’s good to have a goal, but…. BUT… what about letting life give the opportunity? What about letting life happen and when it presents you with an opportunity you then take it? There’s a choice there: Stay on your present course and things will work out more or less as you expected. Or take the opportunity and dare to let life take you somewhere new, somewhere unexpected. Even if it doesn’t work out… you tried.
And so… this bit as I wrote it in my Bardic Journal, I KNEW was the answer to what the message was:
“In life we make our own way, we must take action. But let life show you how, where and what.”
And as if to confirm my realisation as I wrote that down, there was a caw… then another… then a third! (I shit you not!) A young crow was on the roof as I was scribbling away out in the garden. I laughed out to myself, to the crow, to the garden. I got it! To allow life to show you an opportunity, you need to take a moment of stillness, look into the dark (as in silence and withdrawal) and have faith. It doesn’t matter if that faith is in yourself, faith in the Gods, or spirits or whatever… at least put your faith in Life.
I was happy with that and I accepted it… and in accepting, my regeneration and transformation begins.