Hi, it’s been a while.
I’ve come to a part in my life where everything is busy. It’s alright, it’s not a complaint. It’s an admition. I do it to myself. Artemis is forever telling me off because I “Don’t do time off”… She’s right I don’t.
I am, right now, just coming home from the first night of an amateur dramatic play. Really fun role, good physical acting and the audience don’t like my character, which, being the bad guy is intentional.
On Sunday, I just finished a day of storytelling for children, too. Good day!
I have the rest of the week to go for the show and then in August, a festival to help run. Looking forward to it!
So, what’s the problem?
Well, two Saturdays ago, I joined my cast mates at a party of bad movies (the 1968 movie ‘Daddy’s Gone A Hunting‘, which our play may have been based on, Tommy Wiseau’s ‘The Room‘ and ‘Surf Nazi Zombies‘), Cards Against Humanity and junk food. A great night! Up until we started watching ‘The Room’ and I introduced the drinking game that goes with. We were doing the ‘Two-Fingers’ rule and I was on the second bottle of red wine…. To myself. Yes, I polished off one bottle of Merlot all on my lonesome, then started using a Rioca for shots! There was vodka involved, a cup of tea then me praying to the porcelain God for three hours! I crawled into work that morning AND went to the Tech Rehearsal. I was broken!
In my Grove, I’m the one that drinks the most alcohol because I don’t drive. In fact it’s a bit of an in joke that I’ll get drunk at a meeting or a ceremony. My first Grove meeting saw me mixing red wine, mead and elderflower wine, and we ain’t talking a glass of each here!
My problem is this: Since the movie night, I don’t want alcohol!
Tonight, my family came to see the show and very kindly bought me a pint of bitter. I normally drink like a fish, but I was drinking out of habit. I didn’t actually want it! Even joking about necking it down made me slightly queasy. Maybe, I just didn’t like it. Maybe I needed something lighter. Maybe I just need to NOT drink for a while.
Drinking is my drug of choice (next to caffeine), I don’t smoke or do drugs, so most likely, I just need to give it up a while. I will have another drink tomorrow night of something else, if I don’t force it down I know I can drink again. If I find myself forcing it, then I’ll know I cannot.