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“Fire and Blood”

So, 2019, we meet at last. A new year, a new card drawn for myself at the very beginning of the New Year. And fortunately, the title of this blog isn’t really what the year has in store….. I just used the Targaryen family motto because I thought it was cool! And, y’know, Fire Dragon and all…… I’ll get my coat!

2018 had the card of Owl-reversed (Cailleach Oidhche) the card of Detachment, Change and Wisdom. Although, being reversed, it warns of not seeking detachment as escape, the potential death of something and beginning of another…. And that even though night is here, to look for the approaching dawn.

Detachment: Watching out for not escaping or withdrawing into myself, I made sure I kept in contact with friends, visiting family when possible. I was even approached by the Pagan Community for doing talks for them and rediscovered not only could I do this, but that I also had a respect and welcome within the community I hadn’t realised I had…. I figured my pursuit of acting had estranged me from them. I’m glad to say it hasn’t and that I have a good friend base within the community and have even been asked to perform a handfasting for at least one couple this year! In Nottingham’s acting scene, I got to work with some lovely people and good friends. I proved to myself that I am good enough to come joint second in a monologue competition and that people want to work with me. So no, no shrinking away for me.

Death of one thing….. actually there was quite a few. Artemis and I are no longer housemates, as she went to Lincoln. We atill meet up to play D&D and bug each other on whatsapp now and then. The Grove of the Corieltauvi lost our fellow Druid, Luch Dorcha this year. We lost our friend, but his memory remains and we shall honour him. However, the Grove of the Corieltauvi no longer exists. At least not as it once did….. I have also pushed for the death of my marriage. I applied for divorce at the end of November, my spouse had received, signed and sent off the paperwork. All I’m waiting on now is the Court to get back to work and do their thing. And Artemis lost her father as well, a kind and humorous man. So yes, 2018 was a year of things and people dying…. “Light is born, light dies, in dying there is rebirth, in birth there is dying, so it is, so it always is”……

The Approaching Dawn….. Devi and I celebrated our first year together, we stayed in a Hobbit House at the beginning of the year in North Yorkshire. We don’t get to see each other every day, so we spend as much time together as possible and most importantly, we make each other happy and are looking forward to more years and adventures to come. In my working world, at the end of 2018, I was informed that I’ll be moving to a brand new store in Nottingham, rather than bussing it to Derby and back everyday. This means I get at least one hour back into my day instead of using two to get there and back again. I came into my own at work this year. I know who I am, what my strengths and weaknesses are and I am proud of my current team. I m looking forward to my new adventure with Mr S, who will be my new boss. And I’ll be looking forward to that extra hour for myself too. It will make all the difference….. not to mention more sleep!

2019 – Fire Dragon

Transmutation, Energy, Mastery are the keywords to the Fire Dragon (Draig Teine) card. This card speaks of connecting with the inner flame (something I’m very big on), finding the courage and drive to face life’s challenges as well as focussing one’s energies to overcome obstacles and gain objectives. This is a card less to do with gaining power or going into anything with all guns blazing; and more to do with the lesson I learned: the element is actually about combining will with responsibility. For how can you work with fire if you have no sense of control?

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Times of change in 2018 #1

For those of you who have read my post on the drawn card for the year, you’ll know that this year heralded a time of change. Well, nothing says change more like moving home!

The end of March saw me move into my very own flat, here in Nottingham.

This is a first for me, because I have never lived alone before. I doubt having my own room in the University accommodation hall’s back in my youth as a student counts.

My former housemate, Artemis, has gone off to live in the city she now works in; and I sincerely wish her the best. I suppose I could have advertised for another lodger, but I really felt the need to live alone for a while.

My new place is a basement flat in a reconverted Victorian house, when I told this to my Dad, he thought the worst, thinking I had some squalid setting devoid of sunlight. I can happily say I have windows. It’s not luxurious, neither is it state of the art (Remember those dial timers for your heater? Where you had to position the red and blue tags as the on and off for when your boiler could start and stop at different times? Yeah, it’s got one of those!) But it’s sufficient for my needs and plans for the moment.

There are plenty of birds in this area, as I startled a robin pirched on my gate and the morning chorus is becoming louder. There is a tree just outside, I think it’s a Sycamore, I’m not quite sure.

I was given the link to it by Devi, who had found it on Rightmove. I gave it a chance and it was the one place I looked at that actually felt homely.

So….. Because my new pad is a basement flat, Devi dubbed it “Project Potter”. To help me with my organising, she got me this note book and this wand pen. Her Chinese symbol is Snake, so she got me the Slytherin book. It feel this is very appropriate, for in Druidry, part of Snake’s energy is about being able to shed ones old life and growing into the new…..

The Sorting Hat had spoken…… damn, I was surprised!

Two-wit Two-woo (or how I drew the same card as last year!)

Well that’s a first! During the annual fortelling of my focus for the year ahead I’ve, so far, drawn a different animal card from my DAO deck, and some have even been reversed. I have never drawn the same card twice, however. Even if the meaning is slightly different.

The Cailleach hasn’t finished with me it seems…..

2017

Was a year of mixed blessings, so the whole given meaning of ‘Turning a disadvantage into an advantage….‘ was very true:

I auditioned for The Last Revolution under the impression of not singing…. but I did! It totally pushed my boundaries and was a brilliant experience!

I was moved stores (again!) But have learned much about my working self and have even been inspired by my team. I also learned hard truths about myself, so that worked out well. Bizarrely enough, I have whole heartedly adopted the ‘Viking Mentality’ work wanted us to take for our busiest season. Mainly because this resonates with my beliefs anyway: be courageous, never give up, seek wisdom, seek challenges, respect others and yourself, seek opportunities, value loyalty, let your actions speak for you, live the life you want, and above all else…. turn disadvantages into advantages!

I’ve spent most of the year fighting with Impetigo. An infection that can most definitely go fuck itself off. However, it has shown me how to be cleaner than I already am…. ok, I’m struggling to find a positive on this one…. all I’ll say is I’m now a member of the ‘Wash Your Hands After Going Anywhere in Public’ club.

The card also speaks of being drawn to the study of esoteric lore or even Clairvoyancy…. I don’t know about that, but I have:

  • Learned about looking after myself after burning out.
  • Helped my Pagan group with spirit problems. The Prayer for Peace is awesome for this.
  • Developed my ‘Five Senses Meditation’.
  • Followed my inspiration to lead the Samhuinn ceremony for my Druid Grove.
  • Followed my gut……

Not only did my gut dare me to go for the audition, it also dared me to ask Devi out for a drink. ‘Go on….’ it said. ‘Ask her if she fancies meeting up with you for a drink. You’ve only met her the once, a few years back, and briefly spoke to her last Samhain…. Go on, you won’t regret it….

…..and I haven’t regretted it one bit! Devi is the love of my life and she’s amazing. We met for our first date back at the end of April, we found we really got on. In time we discovered we connected on so many levels and haven’t looked back since.

2018- Owl, Reversed.

Yeah, I think I laughed out loud after I put the card back in the deck, turned all the cards the right way round, shuffled them, split the deck, turned one half upside down and shuffled them again until one refused to go back in….. I wasn’t expecting Owl again.

Owl reversed still contains elements of the upright, so turning a disadvantage into something positive, as well as development of one’s intuition still applies. It mainly speaks of a warning against seeking detachment as an escape and to seek the bright side as changes happen….. and with the Owl card being the harbinger of change, changes will indeed come.