Obviously, I did not mention or bring up any of that. That would have been way too much!
Instead, I launched into a monologue of my latest hypothesis of the gods I believe in and what they are. It went something like this:
If we go with the idea that all there is through the universe is the Life Force. And by that I mean the spark of life that is within you, is connected to the Life Force in all things: it is connected to the Life Force in others, in animals, the sea, plants, the wind, the rain, the Sun. This Life Force permeates everything, it’s why some people can feel or even see the auras of other people and things. It is the thing where our Life Force goes to when we die and is the reason why some people can claim to speak with the dead as their spark joins the pool, allowing echoes to be heard and remembered.
You get the idea, right?
So, what if….. What if this Life Force had a sentience to it? And it communicated with us, and these communications became manifest into beings our ancestors interpreted and called gods, or spirits even?
In effect, the gods are the avatar of the Life Force.
Of course, when talking about all this to someone who had already stated he was an atheist, he told me “The problem with anyone who believes in something, is that you’ll never convince me it is real.”
And he’s right. I can’t convince anyone of what I experience or believe to be true. Our experience is entirely subjective. My beliefs are a mish-mash of what I have learned, experienced, encountered and found not to be true. Yes, I resonate with the gods of a people whose culture has now gone. I have had conversations in visualisation meditations with beings who claim to be these ‘gods’. Are they in fact distant ancestors? a manifestation of the Life Force that uses images and names I would understand? A projection of my inner voice that I unconsciously make into a character (a bit like what happens when we dream, except this time I am more lucid)?
What would make such encounters more interesting, is for one of these to appear and give you their name as one you don’t recognise. Or better yet, a familiar deity comes forward and disagrees with you. Saying why something won’t work or how something else is a bad idea. Or even how some idea about them is wrong: although be sure to write notes upon coming to and do some research to back that one up!
Question: How come all gods are not the same?
Conjecture: Because they are relevant to the people they belong to.
I know these things, these conversations (revelations of insight?) , these beings are real in my perspective. It’s like when I see balls of light at the Grove Hearth: I physically see them with my own two eyes, even point out when they are there, but no one else does. Except for one other. Do I know what those balls of light are? No. Can I show a team of scientists one of our ceremonies in the Grove and point out when the balls of light arrive? No, they don’t appear every time.
And so it is with gods, spirits, entities et al I can’t convince other people these things exist just because I encountered something.
And as I was explaining the Life Force hypothesis to my friend, I actually realised how ridiculous this sounds to someone who doesn’t believe. You’ve got to admit, it does sound crazy. Any of it, all of it! And people go to war over this? People murder each other because they disagree?
Thankfully there was no war in my friend’s car, we ended the chat on pleasant terms and I finished it by saying:
“You’re right, I can’t convince you of what I believe. My beliefs are my own. But if I was to say if you were to believe in something, believe in you.”
Okay, this is going to be a big one. We’re going to go nice and deep. So go and put your kettle on and make your self a tea, coffee or hot chocolate and get yourself ready.
This is the second installment of what was supposed to be a three part series which was taken from a conversation between me and my Pagan friends from Newark, Heidi, Helen and The Nathans.
You can read part one here. This entire post explores some of the themes we discussed. The question of deity came up in the Grove I belong to, which you can find here.
The title question didn’t come up exactly like that, but the conversation went in the direction of talking about the gods and were Druids priests?
As for the priest thing, I think that’s debatable as the accounts we draw on for classical Druidry were written by Greek and Roman writers going on third hand information in trying to explain a totally different culture by their own standards.
Do I worship gods? Yes. I regularly give offerings and light a candle when I feel the desire to do so. There’s no point in doing ritual if it feels like a chore now, is here?
And it all depends on what you mean by god.
Still got that hot drink? You might want to consider something stronger, beer or whisky helps….
I don’t believe the gods are cloud dwelling, toga wearing bearded individuals who play games of fate with our lives for sport.
Neither do I believe that the gods are space aliens from another world/dimension and that magic was only a science our ancients didn’t understand…. although I do find the case of the Dogon tribe in Africa very interesting indeed.
I have written before of my fascination with the Tuatha De Danaan and I am inclined to believe they were once real people who either were one of the most famous Celtic tribes of all time, or they were exceptional in their own individual spheres. Are they creator gods? No. Although in their pantheon, they brought light to the Isle of Destiny and the world was here before they were.
I have discovered that my form of belief falls within what is called Animism, where you believe all things have a spirit. An essence, spark of the divine: Prana, chi, numina, nwyfre, soul whatever you want to call it. And it is this essence that is eternal. I have a hypothesis that goes:
Every thing has a spark of creation in it. Whether it be animal, vegetable, mineral, water or a star. Just because we see the world differently from a tree, or a dolphin or a mouse, it doesn’t mean they don’t have their own ways of life and form of consciousness. This spark/divine essence/thing is what remains when our physical body dies. Now, say that someone dies and they were exceptional in some way. The rest of the community that individual served need help with something our dead person was very, very good at. So they call upon the essence of that individual to help them… and it works. It works so well that for generations that particular spirit becomes regarded as an ancestor. Further generations down the line and that ancestor becomes deified. They become a god.
Say, for some reason, other people now call upon this deity, and it catches on. Then for other reasons, the practice stops and the deity becomes forgotten… What happens here? Does it die? Does it go around inspiring people? Or does it roam existence until someone some when finds information about that deity and wants to begin practice all over again? And should there be someone to give it reverence or worship, does that mean the person or persons giving to it add something of themselves to it?
We see this happen with the Saints, it happens in Native American cultures when they revere a household totem, of which there are two types. One is a personal totem which acts as a sort of good luck charm, the other is a family totem that cannot be bartered or lent or sold. But it can become adopted by the whole tribe as a Godhead as it is added to the rote of ancestors. In short, gods can be made.
When most people say ‘god’ they mean a creatrix being that creates all things and knows everything about everyone in all space and time. When they say ‘gods’ they mean beings who are beyond mortal. I classify gods, ghosts, spirits, otherworldly beings, elementals, demons, dervishes, spirits of place, etc as Non Physical Beings, NPB’s for short.
This is because I believe that if you go with the above as a form of consciousness, then that means they are not limited to any one particular physical form or shape. They can choose a myriad of forms with which to approach us, or in some cases (if not all), it depends on our own perception filters on how we see them. I also believe that there are NPBs that have been around for a very long time and occasionally helped our ancestors in some way, whether through inspiration, advice or intervention. I believe that some of these beings even became the Godhead for certain peoples and societies.
Do gods control us? On the contrary, my own personal take is that fate is pretty much a sealed deal: you’re born and you die. Destiny, however is what happens in the middle and it is up to us to make it work. Its like we have a certain line we follow in life that, if we do follow it, can result in our highest potential being fulfilled (which goes onto our spirit being given the chance to grow). I believe the gods, or at least other NPB’s who give a shit about us want to help us keep on this course, whatever it is, and in helping us achieve this, help themselves.
So, this brings me on to the models I discussed with the Newark gang…
1: All Gods are real-
Yep, all gods, deities, spirits, anything out there that is an NPB is in fact real.
Brighid is a conscious entity that is fully aware of who and what she is, and even helps us out. She inspires us with poetry, creative endeavour, prophecy and helps midwives make the right choices. Odin disguises himself as many different people to interact with our world (Midgard). There are land spirits wrecking strange havoc in your house, we call them poltergeists now, just say you’re really sorry and offer them milk. Jehova/Yahweh is simply the God of Israel, not of everything and his word has been rewritten that many times, no one remembers what he was really on about. Spirits of the wind actually do dance, creating wind eddies,Fire is alive and well and watches you! Its ALL true.
2: Spirit is all-
Similar to above, but everything is simply spirit in other forms. Spirit is the underlying thing that binds all living (and dead) beings. Think of the Force from ‘Star Wars’. It flows through us and around us as well as beyond us. It is by tapping into spirit that NPBs have knowledge of past, present and future as well as having some telepathic knowledge about us. Nothing dies, it only transforms. There are spirits of all kinds, spirits of people, animals, plants, the planet, the winds, water. Even ‘gods’ are spirits.
3: We ARE The Gods-
A very interesting idea coming from books on Chaos Magic. This goes on the premise that we are in fact our own gods. All that magic you’ve cast, spells been made, those signs of synchronicity that lead you to things are all your own doing. Any NPB that is personal to us is a manifestation of our own self made into an interactive form. So yes, Anubis IS probably talking to you because YOU created him!
The NPB is a sort of avatar if you will. In short, we are more awesome than we dare to imagine!
4: It’s all crap-
There does remain the possibility that everything I’ve described above is totally, utterly, absolutely rubbish. There are no gods, there are no spirits or magic, things don’t happen for our benefit and it is all just coincidence coupled with a desire to believe.
We are born, we die and that’s it. The universe is not a self-exploring entity and we are a nanosecond blip in the infinite cosmos. How gloomy and boring is that?
I’m sure there are more models and possibilities, but if I wanted to examine this subject in more detail, that would mean turning this essay into a book.
My belief is a mixture of models 2 and 3. I believe that everything has a spirit or essence, that spirits don’t all have physical forms and that there are conscious entities alive and active in our world apart from us and other creatures of the world. I believe that we can create our own interface entities that have the potential to become NPB’s of their own consciousness and become individual beings.
I believe that there are independent NPB’s that actually want to help us. But why? Is it because they feed on our belief and off us? Or is it because, like us, they were once actual people who became deified and evolved in someway. And through helping us by showing us how to access our own potential and increasing the potency of our own spirit we can become like they are… our spirits evolve? (Y’know… like pokemon!)
I’m nearly finished, I promise! So, as you sit there with the last mouthful in your drinking vessel waiting for you, I’ll finish on this note:
Last Monday I received a message from my friend, Dianara. She is a Priestess of Diana and she had a message from the Morrigan for me: ‘Everything is for your own good, stop complaining and get out of there…‘
Okay…. I get that this whole year has been about change. And yes I agree that whatever I have or am still going through is indeed for my benefit. Complaining? I probably was and didn’t realise it. As for getting out of there, me and Dianara talked and she felt that it was more of a bad place I was in, a sadness or bad mental state. This is where the message hit home. For a couple of weeks I was indeed sad. Things had made me question my actions and second guess myself. I hadn’t told Dianara what had been bothering me before the message and I hadn’t given any sign of Les Booky Farce of my sadness, so how did Dianara know? Because the Morrigan, my Great Queen, my assigned deity from the Tuatha De Danaan whether she be a deity, an ancestor, a construct or whatever she is told my friend a message for me. Which is exactly what I think the Morrigan would say: ‘Quit yer bitchin’ and chin up, it’ll be worth it!‘
And so to my sadness I say two words: No More.
Thanks for the message, Dianara and thanks Morrigan for the kick up the ass.